My Final Thoughts

Since I had finished writing my book. God has led me to an amazing answer to my struggle for deliverance and assurance. After 31 years I am free to trust Christ in fullness. I have received the verse. Isaiah 26:3 Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee: because He trusts in Thee. After a long period of doubt, I discovered that some of my faith was hindered by legalism. I had heard of the term, but never applied it totally to myself. I came to a point where I was totally hindered by being double minded. My faith was not a complete faith. I asked my Pastor for counsel. He recognized what I was doing wrong. I was dwelling on my salvation experience to prove I was saved. I was also trying to prove my faith to myself because of my poetry I had written. Both things were good, but I made the mistake of looking to these for my assurance. My Pastor revealed to me that double mindedness came from the desire to try trusting something other than Christ. He simply said, "Trust Christ." The two words stuck in my mind and my heart. Don't trust your salvation experience and don't trust your gift of poetry. Don't trust your part in salvation. Just Trust Christ. As I worked through this, I let go of the things I was using to prove to myself my salvation. Again the answer was to trust Christ and what he had done. The solution was found when I called on God for deliverance. Again the words rang true "Trust Christ." The next day lead me to not only trust Christ, but also trust Christ's love. I found myself complete as this last step was applied. I don't understand the spiritual ramifications of this "I just know to trust Christ" After my deliverance from double mindedness, I can look upon my Savior with a full faith. For I trust in Christ and His love. I can trust in Christ's Word and His Cross. Truly this assurance is a great gift from my Lord. May I go forth in boldness of faith. May I share the name and face of my God, the Lord Jesus Christ. Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith.